Am I the only one who is feeling a little bit disappointed at the press coverage of Jennifer Hudson’s weight loss? I mean I am happy for her because she looks wonderful and says she feels extremely healthy - HOWEVER, she was absolutely beautiful before and I felt she was a very good role model for women everywhere.
I’m not against becoming healthier, whether that means losing weight or not. I just wish that it weren’t about the sizes, the numbers, or the diets. I want everyone to feel beautiful no matter what they look like. :/
Yesterday: Okay. Not great, just okay.
I opted for a bunch of healthy snacks as opposed to the ones I’ve been eating lately. Rather than reach for the box of cookies during my Thursday night TV fix, I opted for carrots and celery sticks.
Speaking of Thursday night TV fix: WHAT THE HELL GREYS ANATOMY. I felt drained after last night’s finale. DRAINED. Maybe I get a little too into my shows, but fuck, if Derek had died I think I may have marched my ass straight to ABC and screamed at them.
Anyway… aiming for a better day today. Breakfast = chai tea, 1/2 a scone, and mixed fruit. (Melons!)
My beautiful best friend and I did an exercise today to think about and list the things we like about ourselves. 220+ pound, 6 foot tall me actually had more things to say I liked about myself than 130+ pound, 5’7 tall, rockin-awesome-bod bestie did. This made me so sad.
Reality check.
I think it’s pretty obvious that I haven’t been ‘all here’ based on my lack of posts lately. It’s bad. I don’t really know what happened but I seem to have jumped off the wagon and moseyed my way as far away from it as possible. I’ve been drinking pop, eating not a lot but TERRIBLE things, not getting enough water, and definitely not getting enough exercise. Our race is next weekend and I’m terrified because both Caitlyn and I have been half-assing our training for the last six weeks. I’m pretty positive I’ve gained back 5-10 of the pounds I originally lost. I don’t think I’ve ever yo-yoed this much in my entire life.
I feel like crap and look like crap. I bought a plus-sized bathing suit the other day (size 20) and my first bra-shopping trip since last year ended in the purchase of a size 40D and 38DD. (Which is only one size up… but wow.) This isn’t awesome.
So I’m coming back. And maybe this time I’ll take baby steps to avoid burning out so early in the game. Day one starts tomorrow.
Less than one week left until this horrendous semester is over with.
BLERG!
I really haven’t been very hungry for the last four or five days. And by ‘not very hungry’ I mean my stomach doesn’t growl anymore. I’ve been paying more attention to emotional hunger vs. real hunger and … I’ve discovered that I no longer feel real hunger even when I haven’t eaten for 8 hours. (This particular discovery wasn’t on purpose, I hadn’t realized how long it had been.)
Is this bad?
(p.s. this is my 200th post!)
changeforgreatness:
I still subscribed to her tumblr through the rss page and it suddenly got 6 new posts of pictures of really unhealthy girls. I feel like after reading her blog, I know she wouldn’t post pictures of girls who looked like that. I was so happy because I genuinely missed her blog but now this hacker is advertising their own tumblr on skinnyambition’s.
This is sad. Hackers need to get a life.
She deleted her blog and her twitter awhile ago. I think what happened is someone made an account under the ‘skinnyambition’ name since it was no longer taken and those someones happen to be very unhealthy. Because none of us are subscribed to her account anymore unless through the RSS feed, I’m sure it had to have been deleted at some point.
