May 2010
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Disappointed?
Am I the only one who is feeling a little bit disappointed at the press coverage of Jennifer Hudson’s weight loss? I mean I am happy for her because she looks wonderful and says she feels extremely healthy - HOWEVER, she was absolutely beautiful before and I felt she was a very good role model for women everywhere.
I’m not against becoming healthier, whether that means losing weight...
Recap
Yesterday: Okay. Not great, just okay.
I opted for a bunch of healthy snacks as opposed to the ones I’ve been eating lately. Rather than reach for the box of cookies during my Thursday night TV fix, I opted for carrots and celery sticks.
Speaking of Thursday night TV fix: WHAT THE HELL GREYS ANATOMY. I felt drained after last night’s finale. DRAINED. Maybe I get a little too into my...
P.S. A note on body image
My beautiful best friend and I did an exercise today to think about and list the things we like about ourselves. 220+ pound, 6 foot tall me actually had more things to say I liked about myself than 130+ pound, 5’7 tall, rockin-awesome-bod bestie did. This made me so sad.
Reality check.
So uh...
I think it’s pretty obvious that I haven’t been ‘all here’ based on my lack of posts lately. It’s bad. I don’t really know what happened but I seem to have jumped off the wagon and moseyed my way as far away from it as possible. I’ve been drinking pop, eating not a lot but TERRIBLE things, not getting enough water, and definitely not getting enough...
April 2010
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Home stretch
Less than one week left until this horrendous semester is over with.
BLERG!
Food?
I really haven’t been very hungry for the last four or five days. And by ‘not very hungry’ I mean my stomach doesn’t growl anymore. I’ve been paying more attention to emotional hunger vs. real hunger and … I’ve discovered that I no longer feel real hunger even when I haven’t eaten for 8 hours. (This particular discovery wasn’t on purpose, I...
Umm, I think Skinnyambition's account was hacked.
changeforgreatness:
I still subscribed to her tumblr through the rss page and it suddenly got 6 new posts of pictures of really unhealthy girls. I feel like after reading her blog, I know she wouldn’t post pictures of girls who looked like that. I was so happy because I genuinely missed her blog but now this hacker is advertising their own tumblr on skinnyambition’s.
This is sad. Hackers need...
exfoliation-deactivated20100504 asked: Hey how have you been? Haven't seen you on here in a while! Hopefully everything is alright. Are you still trying to lose weight or is that or pause?
Over It
Maybe this is just my up-since-5:30-and-exhausted self talking, but I’m totally over it. It being everything. I’m annoyed and tired of trying. Not just trying to lose weight and trying to get fit, but trying to catch up on my bills, trying to make decisions, trying to do well at school, everything.
My mom has boycotted grocery shopping. Yeah, not even kidding. She refuses to go...
Oh really?
I hate living with my parents sometimes. (Sometimes I don’t because they don’t charge me rent, bless their souls… but that’s for another day.)
Now is one of the sometimes that I hate living with them. Why? Because my mom tells me I don’t need to bother shopping for my own groceries because I don’t eat very much anyway and it’s not a big deal for her....
Health insurance or lack thereof.
I hate not having health insurance because my birth control prescription is $70 a month without coverage. I’ve applied and qualify for Michigan’s ‘family planning’ coverage, but I haven’t gotten my card yet and this is month two off the pill.
I hate feeling so vulnerable and being so anxious about my period. (I don’t even know when I’m supposed to get it...
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@queenoflean
Good story about that braid/pin! I can’t decide whether or not I want to keep my bangs or grow them out, so they’re in this awkward too-long-but-not-long-enough phase that drives me nuts… the only solution i’ve found is either pulling them back and twisting them into a bobby pin or braiding them back (sort of like french braiding, but without the complication.) It’s...
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Updates!
Sorry for the lack thereof yesterday!
I ended up staying the night at Cate’s house last night due to her breakup with boyf of almost two years. Serious comforting and best friend time happened. Good news: binging did not! When we went to dinner I stuck to my newly founded guns and opted for a grilled mahi sandwich rather than fried or a cheeseburger. The whole no-meat thing has been...
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Green Monster Day 2!
I forgot to take a picture before I devoured my second green monster today - It was that good! Same recipe as yesterday, but with a little more spinach and flax. After the amount of energy and fullness I got from this yesterday, I can’t see myself removing the green monster from my daily routine ever!
Today I plan to go buy more spinach (I’m almost out already!) and some other yummy...
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Day one
of being vegetarian AND choice-conscious? SUCCESS.
I feel amazing after today. This is the first real perfect eating day I’ve had in a long time - and to top it all off, I didn’t feel hungry at all. I felt satisfied and energized all day long! I defeated my cravings and successfully avoided meat! So in honor of this, I’ve got some meal choices I’m actually proud to show...
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Guilt and choices
I took my cousin to McDonald’s on the drive home today… and sitting in the drive-thru I had a revelation, so to speak.
Waiting in the drive-thru of any fast food restaurant, whether I’m the one eating or not, is an intensely embarrassing event for me. I find myself sinking into my seat even when no one is around, I avoid making eye contact with the workers, and I generally drive...
The 20 Healthiest Foods for Under $1 →
thisdietdiary:easyfastcheapcooking:
“Although that bag of 99¢ Cheetos may look like a bargain, knowing that you’re not getting much in the way of nutrition or sustenance makes it seem less like a deal and more like a dupe. Choosing one of these twenty items, or the countless number of similarly nutritious ones, might just stretch that dollar from a snack into a meal.”
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Upcoming Changes
If any of you remember, I made a small comment a week or two ago about dying my hair blonde… and this week, it’s becoming a reality! My natural color is a really light sandy brown which can be seen here in my roots:
But I’ve been dying over it for about ten years to a shade that varies closest to this (and yes, that is an epic wolf sweatshirt):
So I’ve decided that...
Why I love Easter in one word:
Brunch.
Brunch brunch brunch. I love brunch. I’m lucky to have a family that, on this holiday at least, celebrates with a large early meal and a small later meal. If only I could pull this off every day. I love breakfast foods and fresh fruits and fueling up for my entire day right off the bat. Yum yum yum.
(I don’t actually celebrate Easter, but for the fam’s sake (and the...
Good day!
So far, great day eating wise. I feel like I’m getting back on track.
Breakfast: 2 scrambled eggs and a slice of toast
Snack: “Everything” Apple and Carrot bran muffin (small homemade)
Lunch: Chicken and veggie lean cuisine + 1 banana with peanut butter
By the way… this peanut butter and banana thing is my new favorite snack. So yummy and so filling!
Does anyone else have this problem?
I always start my day REALLY well - I usually grab greek yogurt/granola or a big fruit smoothie for breakfast, then have a fruit for a snack, and healthy lunch (which varies,) and once afternoon/evening hit I blow it all.
Yesterday I did really good until I got out of work and was starving… so we went to Bubba’s and I got a burger. I mean, a burger by itself isn’t that bad, but...
Best intentions
Yeah so. It’s spring. It’s DEFINITELY spring. The sun is shining and I swear that the thermometer reading 74 is wrong… It feels like 80.
I tried to go running. Key word being ‘tried.’ I made it about 3/4 of a mile in and started wheezing because my body tends to overlook my allergy-induced asthma. Sigh. However, I perservered and walked the rest of the way for a...
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April Goals!
Goal Weight: 200 lbs
I haven’t weighed myself yet for this week, but that’s roughly 15 pounds. What does this mean? This means some serious cracking down on all fronts.
Fitness Goals
1. Run. (Preparation for the 10k)
Minimum of 4x per week, 20 miles per week
Finish a 5k at a steady pace of 11 min/mile
Finish a 10k at a steady pace of 12 min/mile
2. Strength/Flexibility
Go to...
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March Reflections
Some important things I have learned this month:
1. Drinking is fun… but not for your body.
I love a good time and, for me, drinking is a good time. That being said, it’s not something that should be overdone. Example: I will not drink multiple times per week on a regular basis… my digestive system does not enjoy it.
2. Exceptions are okay… just not for me.
I can handle...
Yesterday and today
Yesterday: I succeeded in de-roaching the apartment. Or at least started the process. Gross topic, I know - but I am really proud of myself for sucking it up and being proactive instead of just pretending that the problem wasn’t there.
Today: I am back in Michigan. I was lazy and slept as soon as I got home. Bad eating choices (see: fast food) were made today and I really don’t have...
March 2010
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I want a pair of cut-off sweatpant shorts to wear...
channelingcarrie:
Preferably ones that hit the knees or somewhere around there.
I saw one pair at American Eagle, where else should I look?
If you’re cheap like me, Wal-Mart sells Hanes sweatpants for like $3 a pair… It would be SO simple to cut them off to your desired length and just hem the bottom so they don’t fray. (Saves a ton of money AND you don’t have to worry...
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Bikini Talk
All of this discussion about bikinis has really gotten me thinking. I’ve never worn a bikini. Not since I was too little to even really consider it a ‘bikini.’ I’ve never even really thought about wearing a bikini, as nice as that would be. I generally just hate swimsuits - they are expensive and revealing and I have never been able to find a suit that I am 100% comfortable...
Afraid of
the kitchen in this apartment. Two nights in a row now we’ve gone out there, turned on the lights, and seen at least two creepy crawlies scamper to their respective hiding places. This is why I hate apartment buildings. I’m 90% positive our neighbors to the left have some sort of infestation going on and it’s migrating.
:(
I haven’t cooked anything since getting here...
Being responsible
and other things people generally don’t do on spring break, part 1.
I’m really excited because I devoted today to making my resume and applying to jobs on the internet. One of which being working for Higher Grounds Fair Trade coffee co. UH YEAH? Talk about an amazing place to work. I hope hope hope my introduction was a good one. I’m also applying at a local tea farm. I really...
Spring Break frustration
So I’m here in Toronto again for spring break. This in itself is not very frustrating, but the beautiful too-cold weather outside is. I want to go running so badly, but if it’s anywhere below 50 degrees, my asthma will start kicking in. SIGHHHHHH.
I’m going home on Wednesday because our secretary at parks & rec is on vacation and they need me to cover her. Not sure if...
BBC News - An hour of daily exercise 'needed to... →
channelingcarrie:
The recommended half an hour of exercise a day may not be enough to stop weight gain. According to a US study of 34,000 women, an hour a day of moderate exercise is needed to fight the flab. Overweight women need to diet as well as exercise, a Harvard team reports in the Journal of the American Medical Association. The UK government advises adults to exercise for at least half...
Fact about the internet:
It is very large. It is large and wide and vast and once you put something on it, even if you try to delete it later, it will never disappear.
That being said, someone who may be one of my closest friends may have lost a job offer this week due to the social network that is facebook. Yikes. This is scary and apparently very real. I’ve heard stories about potential employers face-stalking...
Apology
I’ve only been half on the wagon this week. And truthfully, the only half that’s been on is the half that is still training for the 10k. I ran 16 miles last week (and met my goal of 15 for the week.) I ran my longest consecutive run yet. But I’ve only made half-assed attempts at making healthy food choices and I’ve been a little afraid to admit that to you guys.
So...
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Is it any surprise
That my two most used phrases when drunk are “Don’t look at me!” and “You’re my new best friend.”
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Relationship
I’m not being selfish. I’m really not.
Matt is upset with me because of the past week’s events. We haven’t really spoken much since Thursday because whenever he calls me, I have completely passed out. I am tired. I can’t stay up late anymore save for random occasions; my body just won’t let me.
He calls me in the middle of my class last night after I’ve...
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214.5
This surprises me SO much. I was sure that last week’s drinking debacle (and the following days of eating out) were going to sabotage the hell out of me.
One more pound down!
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Feeling
I am home for the first night in a week tonight and it is depressing. I don’t like being home. I don’t like being alone. I don’t like sharing a house with my parents. I don’t like sitting in my room on my laptop because we live in the middle of buttfuckingnowhere and it’s too much of a hassle to drive.
I feel complainy.
Mostly because I just learned that it’s...